You are SO IMPORTANT! In a chamber ensemble if you do not play the note it will not be played. In a larger ensemble the sound of your part needs you. Soft or loud. Without you it will not be as good.
How do you learn a new part? “Neptune Run” by Eric Pearson
1. Clap or tap the rhythm. 2. Identify note names. 3. Identify fingerings. 4. Look at dynamic markings.